07/03/2007
Day one on Zyban.
Up at ten, went into village to pick up tablets and there was a prescription missing, called into doctors and have an appointment for? Forgotten already,
some where around five I think.

Concentrate your energy and your intentions will bring the results you seek.

Was quite a pleasant day when I first got up but has changed in the last half hour and the dark clouds are returning.
Have inserted page numbers in an attempt to get pages in right order to blog.
Revision time.
Haven’t done any, spent time on blog, but because was posting so many have come across problems with registration due to anti Spam controls, i.e. intended for automated posting.
Having a chew with signing in for Google and Blogger.
Received a phone call from support centre,
have an appointment for Wednesday next at 2.30 with Ruth.

Went to Docs and had a friendly chat,
got some new painkillers to replace Cannabis.
We had a discussion about the proposed Zyban prescription and he said he wasn’t going to prescribe because the mental hospital had me down as bi-polar, manic depressive and therefore there was a risk of another episode.
I explained the circumstances which were surrounding me when I had the “breakdown” have changed out of all recognition.
I agreed to take full responsibility and eventually we agreed I should try the tablets but he wanted to see me every week before a further prescription would be issued.
I left docs and rushed to chemist to collect tabs before they shut.

So here I sit, relaxed and ready to take first tablet, not knowing fully what side effects may arise in this the first week in which it will gradually kick in and act upon cravings.
I mentioned my chest and throat were in a bad way,
hopefully I’ll see some improvement when these tablets get a grip.

This really is my last chance, I have just opened a new pouch yesterday so this may be my last purchase, I hope.
Have sufficient dope left to see me through tonight, I could have made my last purchase last a little longer but have had a decent couple of days on smoke.
So have received all expected calls and made relevant appointments, will be able to venture out now.I must combine a little exercise with taking Zyban to gain any noticeable effects on breathing.

I share my substance with the poor, making no display of good works, lest I let hypocrisy and vainglory, those enemies that subtly take possession of the most watchful heart, find an entrance into mine.

Stayed up till 1a.m. watching films.