14 th.October.

14 October
Have reached Saturday without spending any money except for £20 on dope earlier on in the week.
I woke up this morning at 6 30, was very cold so went back to bed after a smoke.
Got back up at 11,

Today the weather is grey and misty with only a halfhearted promise of hidden sunshine,
Normally the mist would burn away but today it looks too heavy to disappear.
I feel like the weather, depressed and useless.

The flat is untidy but an hour should see it back to pristine condition,

will leave that job till tomorrow.
I haven’t a clue how I’m going to pass away the waking hours.

I put on the meditation sounds and they fill the room with unassuming sounds, which drift according to their tempo,
a suitable speed for my mood of lethargy.

Blessed are the pure in heart, for they have felt the Blues

If you become serious about yourself,

then you might get some of your own power back and be less dependent on others,

and sure, that's no bad thing.
There are numerous things going on about us that we take no notice of unless they reach our attention.

Dreams are an actual message from one part of you to another.

If you misunderstand this then the dream will remain of limited use.
The dream tries to help the Ego understand that we may have taken a wrong turn or are heading for trouble if we continue to follow a certain way.

Dreams offer guidance.

Consider the dream as a message from something huge inside you wanting to tell you something
The more sensible way is to acknowledge the unconscious is there and respect its presence.
It is worth lingering on this idea of respecting the unconscious,

as it is key to making further progress within oneself.

The Dreamers Own Interpretation.'
The third method is Jungian and he advises that it is not what is dreamed but what the dreamer makes of these deep impulses that matters,
Saying that, the main reasons for dreams are to balance or counter balance the dreamers life when awake.
They compensate, as it were, or try to remedy what is going wrong through the daytime

If the daytime 'I' can borrow from the past (experience) to help sort out the present,

why can't the 'I' of the dream go to future events to do the same thing?

Harmony between the unconscious and conscious parts leads to good mental health.
So developing a respect for the unconscious is good for us!

Accept the fact that the whole of the dream belongs to you.
It’s all in your head
Developing the right attitude is important which means be a little more serious about you.
The dream is about transformation, and overcoming, a moving towards a state of being more integrated and content within yourself.

This is about healing yourself too, if you think about it.

Sit quietly and go back into the dream using your imagination.
If there was another person in the dream, then become the other person,

and as if you were they, say why you are there.

If there is some significant 'thing' in the dream become this and state what your purpose is as if you were the thing in the dream.

Then return to yourself and reflect on what was said, and push it a bit further by asking questions and return to the role of the other, and answer the questions.

Thus you can switch back and forth until you are sufficiently satisfied you cannot get any more from whatever appeared in the dream.

So you amplify or exaggerate what came up in the dream, and begin to understand.

Your own experience in life is your main teacher.
Not the dream, or worse still, someone else's experiences.

The world we see in dreams derives from visual imagery, etc. stored in memory.

When you next become lucid in a dream (where you know that you dream while you dream) pay attention to the manifestations of light in your dream environment.

Look for "a source of dream light" - a dream sun, a dream moon, a dream lamp, even a dream fire (does it feel hot?) . . .
If you can find a source of "dream light", do you find dream shadows behind objects that it illuminates?
If you pick an object up that has a dream shadow and move it about, does the dream shadow behave similarly, or differently, to the way a shadow of a physical object would?

Nightmares became more of a source of constant inspiration artistically.
They serve as portals into the imagination of fear,

We are living during a time in history that governments and the media collectively use to exploit the sense of “FEAR” to project onto the masses a sense of insecurity.
To give us the illusion that the only way that we as a society can be safe from all of the “evil” surrounding us is by allowing governments to continue eroding our rights and pry deeper into our private affairs
Only now are we wakening to the testable fact that such stress mongering is neither just nor healthy.
Early night 11.