15 th October.

15 October
Twelve good hour’s sleep.

I’d finished my baccy off last night and awoke to fact,

Was going to try to last out the 24 hrs.
But when I checked the electric meter it was on one pound so off to shop and another half ounce, not too disappointed.

Tidied up kitchen and did a few day’s washing up then onto washing few clothes which have got dirty,
One shirt two tee shirts and jogging bottoms, which I’ve been wearing for bed.

Am enjoying smoke and will take it easy today on baccy,
hopefully Tuesday should see me finished,
which should be exam day, not bothered if I run our sooner.

With putting £10 on electric that’s my money spent for today;
no trip to pub for Sunday roast!

Will work till three and see if there’s a film on to watch, anything to pass the day away.
Left calf was solid yesterday and still feels same today,
Have been a little nervous of exercise machine and therefore left leg has been taking disproportionate amount of strain.
Noticed yesterday step rate went up to 60 hopefully will improve on that today.
The exercise machine is obviously hitting its mark and I think may take week or so to get used to it, in as much as muscles in my leg will stop complaining.
I think back to the pain I went through when first using pushbike!

Nothing is going to come easy and I’m now aware of that fact.

Need to finish work, have a bath and relax, may go into village and buy a few cans, will see.

Decided to fall back on the alcoholic’s favourite, strong white cider with a drop of lemonade to soften it up,
quite refreshing and above all cheap.

It’s all very well living like a hermit and saving every single penny but it gets boring.
I seem to get everything mixed up at the wrong time,

I.e. trying to give up smoking then fancying a drink at home,
and exercising at the same time!

I had a small shock when I returned home from the shop,
There was a speed police van outside the house;
I made him wait till I got out of my car before he could reverse out,
Thought to myself “good job I didn’t go for a drink in the car“.
Luck sometimes is on my side.

I see nothing wrong with having a few drinks on a Sunday afternoon at home.
I’ve bought ten pints of beer and cider, which cost me the equivalent of four pints in the pub,
which would no doubt leaving me wanting more to get an effect.

I drink at home as I used to drink in the pub,
enough to get an effect, not legless and incapable,

If I choose to have a couple of hour’s nap because of the effect so well and good,
at least I’m safe and not in any danger of harming anyone.

The cider and accompanying smoke slip easily down my throat and I am enjoying sensation.

Some drinkers may frown upon strong drink but if the point of the exercise is to get intoxicated then why not drink a small quantity of strong brew rather than endless gassy pints of a weaker nature?

I belch and examine what I’ve written; at least it’s legible.

Heating on and what more could I desire?
As with smoking gear I like the feeling of being secure;
No one is going to interrupt me and I can be myself, and that is important.

First pint is disappearing fast and I feel stomach filling up.
While I was putting remaining 8 cans in fridge I made a mental note of the contents of the fridge and put together the makings of a meal if I so desired later,
carrots, cabbage, chop and sweet corn all available and ready for use.

Time to search for entertainment on TV.
Watched a bit of telly then got overwhelming craving for fish and chips!
Went but shop shut so ventured further and got myself a Pizza.
This is the first time I’ve had one and I had no idea which I wanted so I just said 16 inch with meat. £6.50 what a display of topping!
I ate half and put remainder in fridge for tomorrow.
Bed 11 ish,