2 nd.January.

02/01/2007
Up at 11 30, decided I couldn’t live in squalor anymore so set about the flat.
Did a month’s washing up, washed the kitchen down including floor, tidied up a little in front room and hoovered throughout.
Place looks a little better, will do more as the week progresses.
Did my bit for recycling by crushing 20+ plastic bottles, have a sack full ready for collection.
Have top 100 count down on radio, trying out a new lager, new in sense of not having drunk it for years, the old 1664.
Weather is dry and the sun is fading but has taken a couple of hours to warm room up.
No meds today, feel I don’t need them.
Have of course taken the usual tablets but have left mind tablets alone. Feeling better for it.
Lager goes flat immediately after pouring but tastes o.k.
Will have easy day drinking.
Haven’t really had a few pints on my own for quite a while, should clean me out.

Went over my dealers to see if solid has come in but no answer.
Fancied a couple of joints to unwind but not to be!
The New Year has found me still smoking and chastising myself for doing so;
drinking on my own and generally unsure of the future.
I really enjoyed been back in my own bed again, had a good sleep last night;
had only a couple of weak whiskies last night before retiring.
Only half way down pint and am belching and feeling acid sensation already; with a bit of luck I’ll have a few drinks, throw up and clear out my throat and chest.

Today is my day; a day to relax, have a drink and take things easy before returning to college work tomorrow.
I have to change, rethink my position and get myself together.
Snapping out of the laziness, which has taken over these last few months.
My gut seems to have subsided after all the overeating of the past week or two.
The lager blows it up but not too uncomfortably.
Stayed up late watching TV then decided to smoke all baccy that was left so rolled four up and finished them off. 1a.m.