20 th.January.

20/01/2007
12.31
Had stopped for 36 hours but got up today and went straight to shop for baccy!
Like a fucking robot I just went through the motions of securing my smoke, I had apparently no say in the matter, autominous.
Have a slight toothache, don’t know if it is coming from one of the remaining teeth or is the jaw healing up.
Have decided to dedicate today to catching up on course work, if I don’t get stuck back in I will let it slide, I can feel I’m losing interest.
I also have to transfer 123 pages onto disc, don’t know if it can be done in one move or will have to be done in sections, hopefully simple copy .

Crack cocaine addict Adam Michael Lee, 25, was jailed for five and a half years for holding up an off-licence with a replica handgun.
Liam Perks, 17, from Trefoil Court, Stockton, stabbed his 14-year-old victim on a Norton school playing field last July.Yesterday at Teesside Crown Court, Perks was put behind bars for three and a half years by Judge John Walford.
Things don’t appear to be getting any better!

Sitting in my chair, marking time,
Trying to figure out what went wrong,
With this life of mine.
Tried to live the acceptable norm,
Failed as a husband and parent,
From the day my daughter was born.

I’ve lived hard and fast,
Never considered how long I’d last.
Heart failure and spine defect from birth,
I slowly realised my worth.

I now seek solitude and peace,
Ambition blunted, fearful of release.
Like a fox on the run,
I’m wary of intrusion upon my space.
Relaxing and content, I live my own pace.

No one knows or cares to understand,
How I cope with life and all its demands.

I thank you.
Have finished another section and sent assignment off to be marked.
Cleaned bathroom and hoovered up living room, looks a little tidier.
Decided to make myself a good meal, so put carrots, cabbage and turnip in microwave and had three boneless chops in frying pan.
I went to put some gravy on top of the veg but when I opened the small bucket of gravy the contents went all over the work top.
I moved the fat fryer from off the top of the mini oven onto the top of the microwave and half a kitchen roll later had most of spillage mopped up.
There was a little bit left under the microwave so not thinking I lifted it up to gain access and the fat fryer fell off and emptied all its contents over the window sill and sink.
Another roll of kitchen paper and all the fat was mopped up, only good thing was the meat was done to perfection by this time!
Finished off a pint of cider after the meal and had a couple of Vodkas and lemonade. Sat up watching films and went to bed.