24 th.October.

24 October
Awoken from slumber by telephone, no contact number left, that annoys me.

Today is a booze free day, grey skies showing little promise of improving.
I spent most of the early morning just lying in bed thinking and drifting in and out of sleep,
Do remember one point in a dream when fluorescent tube was broken and the sound it made was so startling as to render me wide awake with eyes wide open then almost immediately back into dream state.
I tried several times to focus on what lighting was used in my dreams at one point it was almost sepia like, at others it looked like film set lighting.

During these few hours I thought of among other things events of my crack up,
almost everyday new bits of memory remind me of some of the things I did and said to people.
Most of which can be explained by what I was trying to think of at the time,

I was putting myself into the future and trying to figure out all the possible angles and problems associated with being a success at writing or in music, basically trying to find a way around any disruption and hassle that my project would turn up.

Now I’m up and almost alive I may as well finish off the course work and get ready for the second part test. I’ve spun it out long enough and am getting bored.
From a snippet of yesterday’s conversation it seems my Father has been talking to some one he actually knew what the driver’s license was and he used the term correctly.
Up till 12.