27 th. September.

27 September 11:43
Am sat wondering about my behaviour over the last few days.
I think I was about to go back on the roundabout of emotions, perhaps the lack of tablets has something to do with the way I feel.

I don’t intend to keep detailed records of everyday mood swings; some of the people in the program seem to have immersed themselves too deeply in their symptoms, charting their emotions on a scale, recording medications, interactions, possible triggers and as much information as they can fit onto an Excel worksheet!

The only good thing I’ve done lately is to prove to myself I can give up tobacco and that is a huge achievement in my eyes.

I feel unwell today, am I depressed?
I know not,
What could I be depressed about?
I do feel low and need to find something to buck me up.

I wonder how others are able to clearly define good and bad days?

I just seem to awake and I’m effected right from the word go,
I haven’t felt elated for a while just “flat”.

A few days ago things were starting to speed up but I made an effort to control that and succeeded in part.
That’s how I feel today,
running on half power, not able to put sufficient energy and thought into anything.

Fucking keyboard is playing me up, annoying me, so is eyesight!
I don’t feel well at all.

Have tried a couple of system restores but unable to implement them,
took keyboard off cushion and working little better, needs thinking about.
Have had to move receiver very close to chair, typing o.k. now but cannot understand why after all this time of working o.k. from distance it decides to pack up now.
I am unable to function!
My mind and body are flat as a used battery.