3 rd. February.

03/02/2007 10:56
Had an early night last night, in bed by 10.30, polished off last of vodka before retiring and have had a good sleep.
Another nice day, lovely morning sunshine; suppose I should be doing washing but have decided to have another crack at the course work and get my head around the mail merge section.
Will have to learn how to do it on office 2000 and then have some practise on 2003 when I get into the centre.
Went straight to shop and bought baccy, going to make it last till tomorrow afternoon, Muscles have recovered and I’m no longer stiffened up.
Place is a little untidy but no more than ten minutes work.
Am feeling a lot better today, acidic stomach seems to have abated and I’ve been to toilet, am feeling in mood to work so should get a good day’s study done.
Am still in couldn’t care less mode, have little energy so will have to snap out of that on Monday.
By rights I should go into village and collect money, prescription , and lens but will wait till Monday and get everything done.
Will have to be up early to get appointment with doctor so am going to have a couple of early nights to get sleep patterns back into gear.
The tests I did yesterday posed very few problems,
I was surprised I thought they would be harder but even without doing the mail merge section I think I could get enough marks to pass so am feeling a little easier about sitting the exam at the end of the month.
All I have to do now is repetitive work to get the basics into memory.
I liken this course to the last college work I did for the H.N.C. if you weren’t using the knowledge in everyday situations at work then my mind simply forgot about it and therefore tests were a challenge and required a lot of revision.
Once again I need to step back and look at what I’ve done, progress so far, not just in study but in life patterns.
True I haven’t been successful in quitting smoking or taking exercise but at least I have resisted slipping into the easy option of returning to a daily drinker or spending excessive amounts of time either in bed or watching TV.
I have enough examples of such behaviour surrounding me to gauge my “success”.
Most of the residents of my age around here fall into one or more of the above mentioned categories
I am keeping my mind active, learning some new skills and have tackled areas of study which are deemed necessary.
Perseverance paid off, found how to do mail merge, easy when you know how!
Finished final assignment and sent in work required, all that’s left now is revision and practise tests.
Still a nice day so may venture out to parents and pick whisky up to celebrate.
Productive day.

I felt like celebrating so thought of drink and then of whisky and remembered the bottle at my parents, I vowed at Xmas to leave it alone till my birthday.
Quick phone call to parents to re-assure me they were actually in,
(often as not they are out on a jaunt!),
I got washed, shaved, wet my hair and went to collect bottle, had a bit of crack but all the while I was thinking of having a couple in the club.”,
I returned home to the club and despite a little bit of crack, I was bored shitless!,
I finished my third bottle and made a promise to myself to enjoy the whisky tonight.
I opened the door and there it was.
A folded piece of paper,
Wasn’t there when I went out I thought,… worth bending down for?
I decided yes and when I read the note it said,
Some decent gear in,(I’m struggling!)
Too stoned.
Did try to use dictation machine while in bed, some good thoughts came up but was spoiling stone so had to abandon its use.
Decided to be cautious so bought an eighth for a tenner, tried it and it did the trick, spent most of the afternoon relaxing in bed.
Woke up, watched a bit of TV and returned to bed.
Wanted to type but was obviously incapabable.