7 th.October.

7 October
Woke up at 9 a.m. having had 17 hours sleep!
Pleasant dreams throughout and never once having to get out of bed for bathroom or sneaky smoke.

Chopped a log and feeling good.

First smoke took my head off, seriously thought about trying to pack in today but not ready yet, still got tobacco left so will wait till finished.

Must have needed kip.

Blue skies dotted with cloud, intermittent sunshine;
am thinking can I repeat yesterday’s performance.

Surely must be better for me to sleep and not smoke than to sit up aimlessly watching TV.
Received a bill for -£9.84, don’t know what to do with it.

Never had so much good sleep following so little alcohol intake.
Some will say 17 hrs. is too much sleep but hell the body knows what is needed,
am wondering if I can repeat feat.

Four pints seems to have been a limit my body has dictated over the last few years since I decided to cut out afternoon drinking.
When I quit smoking in the past I struggle with the first 24 hrs.
After which the effects don’t seem too bad.

I could easily have made today an attempt day but had already decided when I bought the last pouch that I’d quit when it had gone.
Feeling much better than of late.

I need to hang on till Tuesday, get the final test out of the way and then I should be ready to quit at about expected delivery of equipment and speaker system.

I’m walking about 30 mins each day just by having a stroll into the village for the pie and beer.
Time is now my enemy in as much as I have nothing to fill the hours with except smoking or typing/course work etc.

I feel guilty at supplying the craving but have enough confidence, I hope, in my ability to stop.
The feeling of well being as experienced this morning will be carrot enough for me,
if the gear arrives and I can add a sense of purpose to exercise then my will power will be maximised.

My goals are to;

Ÿ Quit the cigarettes,

Ÿ Exercise and get fitter,

Ÿ Lose weight,

Ÿ Clean up the flat and get rid of smell of smoke.

Ÿ Save money.

I am thinking positively now and am almost sure I can achieve goals without outside help or use of medication I.e. Zyban.
If sleep comes naturally then at least I have one allie to help me.
I still cannot get over the length of sleep,
I didn’t try to get that much, just wanted a couple of hours.