Jan.

January
Had a fitful night’s sleep, but lasted through it.
Been 36 hours now, this is where I usually fall at the first hurdle. Been up an hour reading through all the papers that are involved with transferring the bank account, also received a letter from doctor’s asking if I have been feeling depressed lately, choice of two answers, both same answer basically.
So have a couple of letters to post and one to hand in to local branch.
Also sample of piss for doctors and repeat prescription so looks like I will have to venture out after all.
I held on to the fact that my breathing had improved, no longer keeping me awake at night.
Today is going to be a struggle; apparently after 48hrs. the nicotine is no longer present in the body, and that is what I’m aiming for 48 hours.
I suspect that will be when the body will be subjected to all sorts of ideas to get nicotine back into the equation.
Time is definitely dragging, only been up a while and seems like a day has dragged by.
Place is reasonably tidy and kitchen is clean so there is very little housework to be done to pass the time, may embark upon some later.

Went to doctors to hand in my sample and repeat prescription, posted a couple of letters to bank and went to Redcar to deliver one to bank in person.
Didn’t feel like stopping in town so returned home to club.
Same old faces.
Bought first pint and also packet of baccy and smoked about 6 with three or four pints of beer.
Beer tasted good and was enjoying it, there were four smokers on the table and the conversation was as usual food, drink and past jobs also a bit of bitchiness about the area we all live in.
I came home and went to bed for a couple of hours kip; sure sign I’ve enjoyed the beer.
However when I got back up and had something to eat I felt poorly and had to vomit the beer back up.
Stayed up till one went to bed but was still suffering from acid stomach so had to get up again and empty stomach, was still awake at 5 a.m.
Need to get myself sorted.